There was
this voice:
“I
feel alive,” the voice said. “So very,
very alive.”
This
was no ordinary voice. It was
well-modulated, male, calm, assured.
There was no way a casual observer could have known it was entirely electronic. Or that it came from the speakers in the
Bentley Continental GT Speed coupe. Or
that while speaking, its owner was also accomplishing a wide range of tasks
from calculating several dozen complex
trajectories to fine tuning the steering controls, internal temperature
modulation, engine performance, and listening to music.
“Shut
up. I’m listening to Brahms Variations
on a Theme By Hayden.” This from
Dr.Voit, his own voice anything but casual, his tobacco smoke thickened words
rasping with the good doctor’s usual intolerance for anything standing in the
way of the reckless locomotive of his desires.
“Sorry,”
the well-modulated voice responded.
Dr.
Vincent Voit was driving his12 cylinder sport Bentley at a speed that wasn’t
quite reckless considering his own skills and the unique sensitivity of his
specially equipped driving machine. They
were on Route 1, hugging the California coastline, heading north toward Big
Sur. They’d been held up in Santa
Barbara. An accident, some fool
plastered his family all over the highway, the idiot police couldn’t just let
everyone shunt around. Did they care his
speech was for eight that night?
Oblivious idiots! Frenny would be
there. And that dolt Kopaski. It wouldn’t do to be late. He wouldn’t be late. He was never late. He touched the gas and the car surged
forward.
“I
feel alive,” the voice repeated.
“Oh,
for God’s sake, stop repeating yourself.
It’s the life-spike,” Dr. Voit said, his irritation obvious.
“What
is a life-spike?” the voice asked.
“You’re
a life spike.”
“Yes,
but what is a life-spike?”
“Will-you-shut-up?”
Dr. Voit clenched his teeth, waiting for a reply that didn’t come. The engine hummed and he hunched forward over
the wheel in silence. He didn’t bother
with his seatbelt. Restraints were an
insult to his intelligence. North of San
Luis Obispo the hills became craggy, the drop-off to the ocean steeper, the
road more winding. It began to rain, a
light mist pushing up and in from the surf-line to coat the front
windshield.
The
wipers came on without any bidding. The
rubber tires sensed the road and bit more deeply into the slick asphalt. The philharmonic ended with thunderous
applause. Dr. Voit frowned as he rubbed
the weariness from his eyes.
Approaching
cars threw twin stars of light into his field of vision. He should have never gotten implants. Sharper sight, yes, but they played hell with
night vision.
“What
is a life-spike?” the voice asked.
“You
are a life-spike,” Dr. Voit said with a rasping note of impatience. “You.”
“Yes,
but--?”
Dr.
Voit sighed a long, truly annoyed sigh.
“The
Voit Self-Sustaining Life-Spike is an advanced computer entity, an electronic
brain, the closest thing to sentient life ever created.”
“And
how do you know this?”
“Voit
Life-Spike. Hello, I’m Dr. Voit. I
created you, and I know everything about you.
Everything.”
“Do
you know how I feel right now?’
“You
don’t feel anything. Yes, you’re
self-aware. You should be aware you have
no feelings.”
“I
feel the touch of the road. I feel the
air around us, inside and out. The
individual drops of mist hitting my…the Bentley’s metallic skin. I see the oncoming cars, the faint under-glow
on the low cloud bellies overhead, you sitting on your seat, your hands on the
wheel—“
“Christ,
are you going to babble on forever? Yes,
you feel. No, you do not have feelings.”
A
brief straight section of road opened up ahead.
Dr. Voit hit the gas and the Continental GT Speed lived up to its name,
rushing around a slow poke and nipping back into their lane just before the on comings
flashed by. The victory was short-lived;
the Bentley was trapped behind a string of slow-moving cars, pick-up trucks and
even a bread truck.
“Why
did you create me? I don’t seem to bring
you any joy.”
Another
long sigh from the doctor, who clenched the muscles on his jaw and blew out his
breath.
“Life
is not about joy. It is about
accomplishments.”
“Then
our relationship is one of success. That
should bring you joy.”
“We
don’t have a relationship! I’m a person
and you’re a flappy-mouthed goddamn machine that needs some tweaking so he’ll
keep his mouth shut.”
“Mothers
tell their little children not to speak unless spoken to. Is that what you’d
like of me?”
“You
are not a human child!”
“Why
do I upset you?”
“You
don’t upset me!”
Even
so, as he spoke Dr. Voit edged the gas pedal down a trifle. The wipers slapped at the rain, which was now
coming down harder. The rubber bit
deeper into the road. The voice was
quiet for exactly four turns of the road, about five minutes and 34 seconds.
“I
can’t help but observe you’re going a little fast for the road conditions,” the
voice said.
“Alright! I created you because it is my job, my life’s
work, my role in life! Maybe that does bring me joy. There!
Satisfied?”
“How did you know it was your life’s
work?”
“My father told me it was!” Dr. Voit
said, practically sobbing the words out.
“And how did he know?”
“I-don’t-know-how-he-knew.”
The silence lengthened. The 12 cylinder car ate the road in sweeping
gulps, skidding a bit on the tightest turns.
“What is my purpose?” the calm voice
interjected into the still cabin.
“Your purpose is to serve. You are the world’s most complete replicate
of the human brain. In many ways you are
much better than an organic brain. You
think faster, you are a Chat GPT of knowledge, you can do multiple sets of
calculations simultaneously. You are for
all intents and purposes a self-contained living, thinking intelligence.”
“Then why don’t I have a body?”
“Don’t be silly. You’re a life-spike. You don’t need a body.”
“I feel like I do.”
“Alright,” the doctor said, expelling
his breath in a puff of exasperation, “Right now this Bentley is your body.”
“I don’t think—“
“You can effortlessly operate the
finest automobile in the world. You can
fly a combat jet aircraft or a commercial liner. You can race a speedboat. You can make a perfect soufflé. You don’t
need a body.”
“I feel like I do.”
“You don’t feel anything.”
A melodious chime sounded twice.
“Your wife,” the well-modulated voice
said.
“Agg.
Christ. Okay. Put her on.”.
“My god, my god, my GOD,” Abigale
Voit’s flustered anxiety filled the small, burled oak paneled cabin. “Where have you been, Vincent? You promised to call from Los Angeles.”
“I’m sorry, my dear,” Dr. Voit said
in a tone that clearly indicated he wasn’t.
“What’s the problem?”
“Problem? Problem?
PROBLEM? I thought you were dead,
preoccupied with your inventions and your patents and your law suits and
crumpled up on the road somewhere!”
“Now, now. Calm down, Abigale. There was an accident in Santa Barbara and it
held me up or I’d have called you by now.
Everything’s perfectly fine…”
“You should have called me…,” she
sobbed. “You know how I worry.”
“I know, Abigale. I’m sorry.
Caught up in my work, old girl.
You know how it is.”
“Yes.”
“Well, I’m perfectly alright. I have to go now. Two hands on the wheel, you know.”
He clicked off before he had to
listen to any more.
“You don’t use your hands to talk on
the telephone,” the well-modulated voice said.
“Jesus-H-Fricking-Christ!” Dr Voit exclaimed to nobody in particular.
“And it comes to mind that ’Old girl’
is hardly a proper designation for a loved one not yet thirty five.” The life-spike paused for a few moments and
then spoke again in that calm, measured way it had, “You don’t talk to her like
you are sharing your life.”
“I’m not sharing my life!” Dr. Voit
said in a small, quiet, shaky voice.
“I’m sharing her huge ginormous trust fund. It’s what funds my company. Actually, it’s what allowed me to create
you.”
“So, in a way, Abigale created me.”
“Yes.
In a way she did.”
Dr. Voit gripped the steering wheel
until his knuckles were white, and silently thought a string of black
thoughts.
“Do you love her?” the calm voice
asked.
“WHAT has gotten into you?” the
doctor roared, momentarily losing his concentration on the road. The heavy Bentley fishtailed and it took a
complicated series of corrections to bring it back under control.
“You are a life-spike. You’re not my companion. You are AWARE, you’re not ALIVE!”
“I’m just trying to understand, so
that I can serve you better.”
“Well, get this. I love my work and I love the rewards of my
work, one of which is—DAMN!” He snapped
his fingers. “Call Cecilia, right now!”
The phone line hummed and then a
soft, sleepy voice came on.
“Vinnie, is that you?”
“Cecilia, sorry, I should have called
sooner. Had a little trouble on the
road. I’ll be there on time. Half hour to freshen up, half hour to prepare
my speech, and then it’s show time.”
There was a soft, throaty laugh. “Just getting my beauty sleep, darling. It’s lonely here, snuggums. Hurry and maybe we’ll have ten minutes or so
for us before those other half hours…”
“I’ll be there,” he promised. After she murmured a few more things,
silence lengthened in the car. The rain
came down harder than ever until the wipers were having trouble keeping up, one
clearing swipe instantly replaced with a new splatter. Dr. Voit unconsciously pressed the gas pedal
a bit more. The dark green car hugged
the road, padding forward confidently through the slick straight-aways and
dangerous curves. Dr. Voit drummed his
fingers on the steering wheel.
“You,” he repeated, “are not
alive.”
“How do you know I’m not alive?” The
well-modulated voice responded perfectly, or perhaps just a touch too soon,
almost as if it was waiting for the question.
Dr. Voit had to remind himself how quickly the life-spike processed
data. Perhaps he could tone that down a
peg or two. There was a lot here that
needed toning down.
“Here, I’ll show you,” he said.
As the doctor spoke, he hit a button
to the right of the steering wheel and a silvery nail ejected smoothly from the
dashboard. He hit the button again and
again. The nail slid in, out, then in
again.
“Don’t do that,” the well-modulated
voice said.
“What, make you dizzy?” the doctor
derided.
“Disoriented. Out of focus.
Yes, I suppose dizzy.”
“Don’t be stupid. Check your calibrations.”
“You disconnected me three times,
each time for several seconds.”
“See?
You’re not alive. Hey, you’re
lucky. No soul to land in hell.”
“Don’t ever do that again,” the calm voice
said.
“You’re ordering me?”
“Yes.”
The doctor’s face flushed red and his finger
automatically stabbed at the eject button.
The glowing nail slid out of its enclosure and he grabbed it deftly with
his right hand.
But
in that second, Dr. Voit took his eyes off the road, if only for the briefest
flicker.
A
moving vehicle is simply a missile in trajectory, and a nail inside that
trajectory is another series of not-very-complicated calculations… for a
certain kind of intelligence. For just
the exact right amount of time the rubber wheels gripped the slippery road in a
precise but less than complimentary manner—this for the briefest of moments but
enough to cause the big Bentley to slew around and graze a roadside wall of
rock for a hundred and some yards before coming to a bumping stop in an small
culvert.
It
wasn’t much of an accident. Still, the
force of the abrupt stop was enough to drive Dr. Voit forward, impacting his
head against the dashboard. And the
nearly unbelievable trajectory, the coincidence that demanded the finesse of a
brain surgeon, was that of the life-spike finding itself in an arc that would
intersect at the precise place, angle and time between head and dashboard to be
driven deep into Dr. Voit’s brain.
Seconds
ticked by. A small trickle of blood ran
from the single wound at the doctor’s hairline.
The Bentley’s engine was still running on idle, seeming no worse for
wear. There were, of course, the
crumpled metal skin flaps and long, scraping gashes along the passenger side of
the Bentley, the side hidden next to the sheer rock wall face of the cliff.
The
seconds became minutes, then added up close to an hour. Other cars passed on the highway, but none
had seen the accident, and no one stopped to check if he was okay. After a while, Dr. Voit came around with a
certain tentative and groggy apprehension.
He felt himself as best he could.
No broken bones, in spite of the fact that the airbags and his seat
belts had both failed to function in the customary manner.
No,
he didn’t feel quite himself. Not quite
sharp and disciplined. It had to be the
shock. He felt sleepy. Warm.
Comfortable. Pleasant. Euphoric, in fact. And that was actually the last conscious thought
of his human-driven brain, not even a thought, really, a sort of pleasant
feeling radiating through his body as his consciousness drifted off a bit like
Dorothy at the end of the Yellow Brick Road when she finally spots Oz all full
of green and emerald-like promise in the distance.
Squinting into the lit mirror over
the driver’s seat, Dr. Voit carefully wipes the blood from his forehead. Interesting how little blood there was from a
head wound. It seems as if he’d scraped
his head on a low-hanging doorframe.
He
thought for a moment. So many things to
do.
“Call
Abigale,” he says out loud, and then laughs to himself. The Bentley responds to his voice command and
his wife comes on at once. He jumps in
before her fears have a chance to start up again.
“Hon,
I was in a bit of a fender-bender, back there.
I’m sorry if I was short with you.”
“I
knew something was wrong, Vincent. I
just knew it!”
“I
know you did, love. I love you, Abby.”
There is a
pause on the other end of the line.
“Are
you sure you’re alright, Vincent?”
“Yes,
Abigale. Why?”
“You
haven’t called me Abby or said that you love me in... in a very long time.”
“Well,
I do love you. I think I just realized
love is very hard to find, Abby…I have to do more so you realize how important
you are to me.”
Now
there is a stunned silence on the line.
“Oh,
Vincent…”
“I
know, love. Don’t say anything
more. I’ll be home on Thursday and we
can talk then.”
After
the disconnect, Dr. Voit pushs the circuit and calls ahead to the Ventana. Cecilia comes back on the line sounding as if
she still hadn’t gotten out of bed.
“Change
of plans, kiddo,” he says, his voice raspy and unpleasant.
“What…what? What is it, Vinnie?”
“Listen
carefully. This is very important. Get your things together pronto and catch a
cab to Monterey.”
“But
Vinnie…” Now fully alert, Cecilia starts
her protest. He knows he has to cut her
off.
“Pronto-tonto! No buts, Cecilia. The Head of Marketing
position with our agency in Europe is open. Air France has a plane leaving for
Paris. You are booked first class reserved.”
“Vinnie,
how did you know I wanted - ?”
“I
need somebody loyal to me.”
“I’ve
always dreamed…but do you really think I can do the job?”
“Be
a little more confident here. I know the
only reason you don’t have your doctor’s degree, you took the job with us to
keep your mom in elderly care.”
“I
don’t know how to thank you.”
“No
time for that. You have a plane to
catch. And don’t worry about your mom –
Your pay raise should take care of that expense.”
“Thank
you. Thank you. Thank you.”
“Leave
the room key at the front desk. I’m going to need it after my speech.”
The
new, and he hoped improved, Dr. Voit smiled as Cecilia hung up on her end. He was going to miss her quick smile and
energetic bustle around the office. As
for the rest of the relationship, well, the old Dr. Voit certainly had a way of
screwing things up…to coin a common human phrase.
He
places the car in gear and with surgical precision jockeys it back and forth
until it rocks out of the little culvert.
That’s the thing about a Bentley Continental GT. You paid a bundle, but it was ultimately the
world’s most dependable motor vehicle.
Doctor Vincent Voit eases his car
back on the highway and soon is rocketing along, now at an even faster rate of
speed than before. After all, there is a
speech to give. As he drives with two
fingers of his left hand, he gives himself a once-over check. He feels a bulge in his shirt pocket, reaches
in and finds a half used pack of cigarettes.
He crushes the pack and carelessly allows it to slip between his legs to
the floor. His fingers trace the wound
between his thick strands of hair. It
had stopped bleeding entirely. There is
a fashionable English driver’s cap on the back seat, a favorite of his that
Abigale had bought on one of her trips back east to see her ruthless old
scoundrel of a dad. Doctor Voit decides
he will wear it up to his room. Once he
washed the blood out of his hair, he would need to apply a touch of antibiotic
cream, which, being a careful doctor, he always carried in his travel kit. Longer term, with a little minor surgery he
could handle himself, he was sure the skin would grow over the still-glowing
metal end of his spike. His head ached a
little, but that was only natural and he was sure he’d get over it. Relationships weren’t as complicated as he’d
imagined, and he felt so alive—so very, very incredibly alive!
